Confused

While typing this I am opening this url and listening to this sad,wonderful song by mr unknown composer who did a wonderful job and was so well recognized by other listeners. Earned my respect.

http://www.6park.com/enter1/messages/68533.html

I lost something and i don't feel happy.
Even if I have the chance to get back the lost item, I wont feel happy either.
Now that its gone, I feel terrible too.
But I hope it will come back, that is what I wish for.
But I fear the implications that follows.

Anyone can tell me what I want?

I'm busy with life.
Trying to be busy with life?
Just busy.
Many things to be done.
Been done.
Going to do.
Trying to get back the mood to just do things.
Trying trying real hard.

Bad guys ain't bad, are they? They are just known to be bad because they did something people disagree with. We hate murderers and call them bad guys 'cause they kills. But maybe they killed another bad guy? Fhm cost 6 bucks. Got back 100 dollar change after paying 6.50. Return back the money. Good guy? I call that stupid? Trying to get promoted. Back stab some ass without him realising. Got promoted. Cunning backstabber or Clever camo guy?

I don't know why I am typing all this. Are they the work of my brains, heart or fingers? I have no idea.