A New Page... A New Beginning.

14 days has passed since I have started to write into this easyjournal. Since the last day of January, I have been going through all kind of downs. Relationship fell apart. Money was going down the drain. Friends showing their true self. Health deteriorating. Studies totally out of place. Maybe all these were the action after a long period of slacking. And I have to agree that all problems come together.

Relationship
There were happy moments but everything started since the day of my birthday, which was the 2nd anniversary of our relationship. Perhaps earlier… She was so sweet when it all started but things got worst. We promised to meet once every week. It went fine. Then it was once every fortnight. And finally its 2 weeks of no contacts at all. I simply cannot stand someone I love ignoring me and giving me excuses such as being busy with studies, had to have some personal time and etc. She obviously did not know anything about SMS when MMS was already so well popularized now. She hurt me deeply and I cannot stop myself from hating her.

Money
Money is the root of all evil. But I believe I am the root to all-evil. If I was not a punter myself, I believe I would have a few thousand bucks more to spare for some digital devices I have being eyeing on. But I didn’t… On the day of my break up, I made one big foolish mistake. I made a bet of one thousand dollars on a team that I knew would lose the bet. But still I followed on. I was not thinking properly. And all was gone, at least for now. Right now at this moment, I am working real hard to return the debts I had. Tough but it’s a way to mend my mistake.

Friends
Losing the one thousand was not actually a big problem if you have the money to lose. But being a fool, I didn’t have enough. I went around borrowing and was somehow consoled that I had at least 2 friends who were willing to lend me the money. They were truly true friends who come in needs. However as I get older, backstabbers and hypocrites grows more. No more naïve and true friends exist anymore. It’s a practical and cruel world. Everyone goes for what he or she wants and what he or she think was right. I am going to transform into another me, simply because I had to blend into the environment to survive. Maybe everyone was forced to. It was just like bacteria, Spreading and spreading…

Health
Just a day before the Chinese New Year, I was supposed to meet my Ex-girlfriend to jog. But she did not turn up. I went for a game of basketball with some guys who hang around there. No one expected it and neither do I. I sprained my leg and had to limp home for my reunion dinner. No one gave me any sympathy and not even myself did. I deserved it… During the route of recovery, I didn’t take good care of my leg. Nowadays in any ball games, the leg tends to get pain and I didn’t dare to exert too much pressure on the leg.

Studies
No one would have believe it if I said I love studying. But in actual fact I do. It was just so happen that I did not enjoy what I was studying. Getting a bad result in O level left me no choice but to take up Electrical Engineering. However deep within me, I knew that I could attain great results if I was willing to put in more hard work and effort. And the obvious was there, I didn’t. Things did pick up a little but It was not enough and I will definitely strive better because I do not want to fail my aims and goals no more.

Family
Although my family did not bring me much of a pressure, but still there were some parts I cannot accept it. I have a noisy sister who still can’t think well at her age of 15. My father will never stop nagging and irritating me. And my mother shows care in her own ways that makes me feel uncomfortable. But they were the only person I can trust in my life right now. They are truly the ones who love me, cares for me, and will definitely not harm me. They are the reasons for my birth, my carrying on living with and my everything.