Regrets...

Every journal I have begins with a sad happening and this will not be an exception. The results are coming out but I happened to be able to know of my results earlier. It was like 3 hours ago because something went wrong with the server and there was some loose links that made some users to be able to penetrate. The error was mend in an hour but that was enough for me to be depressed. I failed 2 subjects, which made my army days deferred further. Really regretted my actions of not studying hard and slacking off. I really wished to pass and get on with life but now this has happened. All my slotting and squeezing of my modules failed and further more at the last minute. This incident breaks my heart thoroughly and I wonder what should I do. I need someone to provide me with an answer and tell me what is the very next thing I should do. Although I was not alone, the school was simply too heartless. Can’t they give me a helping hand and pull me along. Or can’t they just close one eye and let the thing go? I swear I did not fail that badly. I need to know a path now and I think I will need it fast. Everything did seem be going hay wired and getting out of control. At least this was what I have noticed after this half a year that has passed. Everything seems to just explode at this period. I think I shall proceed no more and get a piece of tissue before the tears gathered around my eyes drops.