Can't Take The Heat

Its been a few months since I blogged. Lengthy ones I mean... My life has never been good for a while and lately it got worst. I don't wish to go into the little, little details, but I must say it’s not so easy to bear with such anger. Based on the fact that I am not someone with much patience.

I have been wasting my life for so long and every time I say something about changing it, my determinations die down just so very easily.

I have been thinking for a while and there are many things that I can't seem to sort out and find an answer to it. But tell me honestly, how many people in this world can you actually confront to, find a solution, deconflict situations and feel comfort at the same time. I don’t have too many such friends. Or perhaps not one at all, for the moment.

I tried once in the past and unfortunately I failed. Trying was never easy and accepting the failure wasn’t one as well. Perhaps the truth hurts have its meaning after all.

I have come across too many ljl in my life till now. Truly aware that there are too many more to come, I have prepared for the worst. Ljl are so everywhere. Am I one of them too? I wondered at times.

One good friend of mine just broke up lately and how can I comfort her. None of my biz I know but good friend of mine feeling sad, I can’t feel much better. Anyway I also did nothing much. So much for my grumbling.

I need to change but I don’t know how long I will take. If I was meant to bloom, I must be a late bloomer. But if I was not meant to, then what am I?

Everyone have his or her own ego. Don’t tell me anyone who doesn’t have any. Even perfect people (although they declare that no one is prefect) have their ego. Their ego is, being too perfect.

I have something to declare. I am too grumpy. Call me grumpy for all I care. People say I frown too much, smile too little, looks damn stressed. Okay… I listen to them. I enjoyed myself, opened up a little, tried to be a joker and make every moment a fun one. But now people complain saying I am this and that. So I go back to my normal self and stopped the nonsense. And the story goes on. What is wrong with you all? Does the problem lie with every one of you or me?

I can’t take the heat anymore and I need to rest. So I shall stop being Mr. Grumpy and rest for a while. Wonder when I will blog again but well who cares.

Life is about nothing but grumbles. Wise man grumble, those who don’t are just mute.