Selfish to be?

There seem to be loads in my mind but everytime when I am suppose to put it into words, things just don't fall out right. Jen is busy with her schoolwork and we haven't been able to go out for a while. Might not be going out for sometime too. It's stupid to feel so ... neglected but then again, the feeling is just there. Why must I feel this way? Simply don't know the reason. She told me she don't feel happy with me. Something that sadden my mood and mind to the deepest bottom. What can I do? I am feeling pretty tired trying to figure, guess and find out a solution. Things just dont seem to have an answer or the best solution. Is this suppose to work out this way? I don't know. I figured out long ago that I was the possessive kind. This makes me a very bad boyfriend. I admit it but I can't change it. I'm trying to be nice and give way. I am doing my best. However does anyone know? There is this pain deep inside. Real deep in the heart which weaken my soul, body and mind... I dont know how long I can withstand. Will I recover... ? I have no idea...